My Journey from Darkness To Light

Welcome to Wholeheartedly His! I’m so glad you’re here. Before we dive into this journey together, I want to share a brief summary of my testimony and how this ministry came to be.

My early life was marked by darkness, brokenness, and a relentless search for truth in all the wrong places. I grew up in a home without faith, and early on, I experienced family-related sexual abuse that set me on a path of pain and confusion. Before I was even a teenager, I started smoking and drinking, trying to numb the pain and fill the emptiness.

I felt like the odd one out in the world, with no real sense of identity or belonging. I lived for myself, chasing anything I thought would make me feel better. But that only led to years of deeper struggles—suicide attempts, addiction to drugs and alcohol, and same-sex relationships. All of this left me more and more broken over time.

Desperate for healing, I turned to false spirituality, the New Age, believing I could be my own saviour. For a decade, I practiced Eastern meditation, manifestation, and countless self-healing techniques, truly believing that I was finding peace. I became a New Age teacher, building a career to help others overcome what I thought I was overcoming, and even joined the adult entertainment industry in an attempt to seek the validation I so craved, blindly thinking that it was empowerment. But the deeper I went, the more lost I felt. Nothing filled the void, and I was caught in a sinful cycle of rebellion and pretense.

As I neared the end of those 10 years, God began to slowly reveal Christ to me. I felt an unexplainable stirring in my heart—like something was changing—but I still clung to the world. A few weeks later, I came across scripture and, for the first time, felt the weight of my sin. God says, “For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any double-edged sword” (Hebrews 4:12), and I can testify that this is true. When I read Deuteronomy chapter 18, verses 10-12, it pierced my heart, and I knew at that moment God was the truth. My heart broke as I realised the depth of my sin and rebellion.

There and then, I publicly renounced my New Age career, losing my reputation, finances, and friends. I destroyed belongings like self-help books, tarot cards, and statues of false gods. I stepped away from social media for eight months, entering a season of surrender where I got to know my Lord and Savior. During this time, I learned about God’s creation, sin, and my identity as a born-again believer.

As I grew in my faith, I began discipling my daughter, attending church, and seeking God’s direction for how to use my story and gifts for His glory. During this time of prayer and reflection, God gave me a passion for creative writing and poetry—something I had never explored before my life in Christ.

This podcast was born from that passion, along with a desire to help women walk through the same struggles I’ve faced – with Christ at the centre. I wanted to create a space to share the beauty of scripture, worship through poetry, and reflect on God’s incredible love and truth. Wholeheartedly His is an extension of the journey God has taken me on – a way to point others to Him through the creative gifts He’s given me and as a reminder to keep our hearts burning for His imminent return.

I don’t want to paint the picture that everything became perfect when I came to know Christ – because that isn’t the truth. But everything changed in ways I could never have imagined. I no longer had to rely on my own understanding. God gave me purpose, healing, and the peace of knowing I am deeply loved, redeemed, and called to share His truth.

This is my story, and I give all the glory to Christ – the One who saved me, transformed me, and gave me a new life.

I pray this space helps you deepen your love for Christ. And if you don’t yet know Him, I hope that you will find the truth, freedom, and eternal hope that can only be found in Him.